Therapeutic Rambling

This is an attempt to make sense of my life and order of my cluttered mind. It is also intended to be a journal of no particular interest to anyone, a record of events and non-events that occur in my life.

Monday, February 27, 2006

Cold

I'm cold. I'm sick of being cold. I'm deathly tired of winter.

People in my office are going off on hot vacations to all-inclusive resorts where cabana boys fetch you fruity alcoholic beverages for breakfast and I am jealous. I am so green with envy that I am having trouble being gracious and politely asking them how their vacation was (in the instances where I actually like the person enough to make them think I am really intereted, by asking).

I want to be warm. I want to be not here. I want to not think about people with cancer. I want the skin on my hands to not crack every time I bend my fingers because it's so dry. Waaahhh!! I want a holiday!!!

And no, the fact that I actually see sun for a few minutes before and after work is not enough. I need heat. I need sloth. I need frivolous time-wasting. In a bathing suit. I need to not require long underwear and two pairs of socks just to step out the door for the mail.

It sucks to be me today.